| my baby is coming soon.....she'll be so beautiful. October come soon
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| I feel like I've suddenly found myself in a sinking vat of nothing. I am nothing to the one who's my everything. There is no home. |
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| I'm back home and th ings are better than ever I miss the world. |
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finally got to see Aaron. It's been a long time and I've been harnoring
a lot of shit. But as it turns out, he missed me and he actually thinks
of me everyday. He said he still reads my letters and talks shit to
christina when she bullshit cause he still has our pictures and the
ones in his phone. I thought that he didn't even care or think to
remember us, but apparently I was wrong. Zach mention that him and
Tiffany agree that we should be back together, right infront of Aaron,
and he just kinda smiled and looked curious. It feels good to have the
power, and oh what I'm gonna do with it.
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| I wish I had a box full of all the memories from the past three years.
From the moment I stepped foot in Macarthur until this moment I live in
now. There are so many people I'll never see again, that have made me
who I am. It was Natasha and Tamara that took me in to becoming a
theatre junkie, and then Julie who taught me what freedom could be
like.
Dream
It was Tiffany that showed me the great wonders of whatever world we
lived in. Martin held my hand, and showed me so many different
perspectives of the world. Matt taught me beauty in freindship. Stevie
showed me that there was so much fun to be had, even when you have
nothing. Head taught me how to party.
Dance
It was Nathan, that taught me what people do just to be cool. It was
Eric that made me laugh more than anyone. Chris showed me how to be
safe, when I wasn't reallly being. Kevin gave me so much hope, and then
took it all away. April was a great friend, when there wasn't a hot guy
around. Michael showed me how far friends go for each other. Lindsay
showed me what a friend really is. Adella showed me what not to be.
Believe
Zach taught me how to defend my rights, and not walk away. Aaron tought
me, that even the greatest love, has flaws and so much more than I
thought I could learn. Jeremy taught me that even black people want to
be white, and getting over somethings is ok. Erin taught me that people
can change very quickly. Bruce taught me that you have to look very
hard to find some of the consequences. Matt taught me that people can
be very fragile. Big Mike taught me where to go when I needed help.
Tyrone taught me that sometimes when you're really sad, letting someone
roll around in piss, can help.
Be
The last three years of my life, will stick with me forever. What an
adventure. I love where my life lead me, and I want to go home so
bad, it kills me. I miss you all so much and I miss everyone else that
I didn't mention. I think about all of you everyday.
Fall
Chris teaches me that I deserve to be treated like I treated Aaron for
such a long time. I deserve to be loved, greater than I can imagine. I
don't think this is "it", but you never know.
Imagine
Just live, like you can, and like you want to. Be happy, and NEVER
live for anyone else. Because in the end, no one will be there, just
you, and only you will live with your memories. What do you want to be
thinking about when your dying? It will happen, just make it what you
want.
Live
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